Mary was a woman in her 60s who was referred to me by a family member who tried a spiritual regression session before and had gotten a lot of healing from a session. She was initially skeptical of a session because she had a long standing chronic back problem and a history of anxiety and depression.

She had initially booked a session with me with the encouragement of her family member but tried to canceled the session because she didn’t believe it could work for her. Finally she agreed to have a session with me anyways to appease those who loved her dearly. We spoke for a long time before the session even started. I sat there patiently as a listened, but I was starting to notice that my back was quite uncomfortable as I had been dealing with some back pain of my own.

During the session, Mary had a hard time seeing anything. Everything was gloomy and dark in the scenes that she was watching. I could tell that she was able to access her soul’s memories because she did see several different past life scenes, but each time, the scenes disappeared and she kept telling me that she couldn’t see anything anymore.

Then, I heard someone speak in my right ear so loud and clear in a female voice saying “USE THE LIGHT!”
So I followed my intuition and guided her to see the most significant scene in her soul’s memory and she went to a scene where she was at her husband’s bedside while he was dying from cancer years ago.

“What are you doing?” I asked.
“I am holding his hand.” Mary said, tears were streaming down her face.
“If you could say something to him, what would you say?” I asked her.
“I told him that I love him very much. If he wants to go and leave this world to a better place, I want him to go.” She sniffled and continued to wipe tears away from her face.

As Mary was re-living this painful event in her life, I heard the voice in my right ear again, Use the Light! So I said, “I want you to imagine that his body is lit up with Light….can you see that?”
“Yes, I can.” Mary said.
“If this Light has a color, what color would it be?” I asked.
“It is a golden colored light.” Mary said.
“This is the Light of your husband’s essence,” I said, “He can now speak to you. What is he saying back to you?”
“He said he loves me, and that he is ok.” Mary cried, “But I miss him so much.”
“Now, imagine that your body is also lit up with Light.” I said. “Can you see that?”
“Yes.” Mary said.
“If your Light has a color, what color would it be?” I asked.
“Also a golden colored light.” Mary said.
“Now, imagine as if you have no body at all, just a golden light like your husband…Now, let your husband take you to where he is going, let him take you to where he is going…where is he going? What do you see?”
“He took me to a place that is so bright, beautiful, and spacious.” Mary seemed to be in a sense of awe. “This is the place of Buddha.”
Mary is a very devout Buddhist and I know that this must be a place like heaven.

“Can we ask Buddha some questions?” I asked.
“Yes!” Buddha answered.
“Can Mary be healed of her health issues?” I asked.
“I don’t think I have enough faith.” Mary interrupted.
“No matter how you may lack enough faith, Buddha is all loving and forgiving, ready to help you at any time, in any way possible, would it be ok for us to keep talking to Buddha anyways?” I asked.
“Ok.” Mary answered.

“Dear Buddha, would like to request healing for Mary’s body, can you help her?” I asked.
“Yes,” Buddha answered, “She will notice that she will be pain free, sleep better, have more confidence and truly enjoy her life.”

After the session ended, Mary got up and said, “I didn’t notice a difference at all. I am not sure this worked. Maybe this just doesn’t work for me.”
While I know this process doesn’t always work for everyone, I was saddened that Mary didn’t get the result she was looking for despite having such a great experience and having the opportunity to be taken to such a beautiful place by her husband in the spirit realm.

When I sat down at my desk later that night to process the session recording, I had the sudden realization that my back was no longer sore! It felt so comfortable I found it hard to get used to feeling so good!

As I drifted off to sleep that night, I heard a soothing voice say, “You did the best that you could. We gave you healing in your back so that you know that healing was always available.”

Then I realized, healing is always available, but we also have the free will to accept or reject the healing that is available. It is hard to imagine why anyone would consciously reject healing. As I thought back to my conversation with Mary, I realized she had said to me, “I don’t have a lot of confidence, I am not sure I can really have what I want to have. Other people seem to be luckier than I am, and I just have to accept whatever happens. My children doesn’t have any confidence problems, they go after whatever they want. But my generation was brought up differently, we can’t always ask for or get what we want…”

This makes me wonder, how can I help people to feel deserving enough to receive everything they want? If I could solve this problem, more people will be able to heal themselves when they connect to their own inner wisdom and infinite power.